A story of Absolute Surrender

October 22, 2012 Jesus, Makala, surrender No Comments

 

My life is totally His. 
All I am 
All I have 
All I will ever be 
All I will ever have 
Are His 
Absolutely, Unconditionally
Now and forever. 
~ Makala Barnabas Doulos, 19 Oct. 2010

I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.
~ Romans 12:1-2

And in exchange for this, He has, by His grace, given this writer a life of abundance that he never knew possible. He is experiencing the Kingdom Life that only He can give of His righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.   

It started with this entry….

Sunday, 07 November 2010

Hello from the Pinelands of New Jersey,


Big Wet Sloppy Disclaimer:  OK.  I’m living proof that intelligence has little, if anything, to do with wisdom.  So, reading, many will be tempted to shake their heads and say, “Duh Makala…  Didn’t you go to Sunday School as a child?  You write like this is the first time you have heard this stuff… .“  Point well taken; pardon my density, but the last couple months just may be my initiation into the normal Christian life.  Please indulge my immaturity, and take what you can from the following words.


It’s like a bright, cold, crispy, cloudless, silent autumn morning in my mind.  I do not remember, ever in my life, ten contiguous days of peace, calm, and freedom from anxiety.  Never.  Yet it has just happened.  This reprieve is one of the greatest gifts I have ever received. 


How did it happen?  God did it.  That’s it.  Oh wait; there is just one more thing.  I gave Him everything (as in every single aspect of my life, completely, absolutely, totally abandoned to His keeping).  Yeah, now that’s it.  

NOTE:  I can hear the audience now… “Well, DUH Mak!  How did you think life worked?  You thought you could do your relationship with The Master of the Universe your way?  I answer, “Um. Yes.  I thought I could do it my way.”  The crowd starts to giggle… slowly it grows to belly laughter… then huge bellowing guffaws as my friends fall out of their chairs laughing at my implausible silliness.  Don’t worry, I mourn my 36 years of crippled walking with Him, but I too am amused at what a dolt I have been.


Me                                            God       


But…………………………………………….. Just believe

i’m afraid………………………………….. Fear not

It won’t last……………………………… I Am unchanging


i’ve screwed up so bad……….. I knew before you did,  and died to pay for your sin.

No job……………………………………… I will provide

People hate me…………………….. So?  I love you

i will fail……………………………………  Yeah, but I don’t

i’m so alone………………………….   Not EVER again

i don’t know how to love…..  I will love through you

Yeah, but………………………………..  Are you done yet Makala?  I would like to get to work in your life.  You’ve just given me everything, so I’m assuming these questions and doubts are merely momentum from the past 36 years.  Would you like Me to handle all of these issues for you from now on?  (Hint:  say YES Mak.)

YES Mak………………………………….. No Mak, just YES


Sorry LORD……………………………. It’s OK.  Are you ready?

YES…………………………………………… Excellent!  Holding tight?  Good.  Here  –  We  –  Go… 

In the movie, “The Matrix,” Neo is being transitioned into the real world by the team on the ship, “The Nebuchadnezzar…”  He awakes on a physical therapy table one day, opens his eyes and moans as Morpheus leans over his face above the table.  Neo groans, “Why do my eyes hurt?”  Morpheus responds, “because you’ve never used them.”  A pause, then Morpheus continues,
 
“Rest Neo, the answers are coming.”

Oh beloved.  His Love is real.  Yield to it tonight.  Here is some more stuff to consider.  But, first make sure of something… check out “Got Jesus?”

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Makala Doulos

Mak is just a guy who is in Love with Jesus and his wife and kids. He writes about the amazing things that G_d is doing in our lives. May you be blessed and encouraged.