Battle Fatigue: Tired And OK

A re-post on exhaustion

“We are to be re-made. All the rabbit in us is to disappear—the worried, conscientious, ethical rabbit as well as the cowardly and sensual rabbit. We shall bleed and squeal as the handfuls of fur come out; and then, surprisingly, we shall find underneath it all a thing we have never yet imagined: a real man, an ageless god, a son of God, strong, radiant, wise, beautiful, and drenched in joy.” 
~C.S. Lewis

After you have suffered for a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will HIMSELF restore, support, strengthen, and establish you. 

~1 Peter 5:10

AAAAAAAGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!  Chazak!  Amats!  Come YWHW-Nissi.  Be the Banner that Thou art!

And we, in Him, secure another victory by Him.  Evil flees from before us as our Front and Rear Guard simply is Who HE is, and we Live and move and have our being in Him.  Those bringing danger to our doorstep – whether that danger be natural or supernatural – simply get swatted away by the power of the One Who Is Truly in Control.

And then… there is this quiet.  All is well.  We are not afraid.  We are even more aware of the glory of the One who has saved us once again… but… suddenly it comes.

We weep.  

We know that victory is assured.  And so, in this knowing, there comes out of us this deep longing for the rear-guard guerrilla war of life to end.  We simply wish for the end of all things; the consummation of the Maranatha that cries out in our spirit.  There is this deep tired-ness in our physical frames and souls that simply cannot handle the intensity of the conflict in which He now has us involved. 

We, like soldiers coming out of hot-conflict, sometimes just drop and weep in our Father’s arms.  We just want our Dad to make this bad go away once and for all.  We are so tired of seeing people hurt, so tired of failing others, and oh so very tired of the law of sin and death at work within us that is ever-attempting to get us to take our eyes of the Author and Finisher of our faith.

And He does comfort us.  In fact, it is in these times where the comfort is most profound.  We are so absolutely spent after some battles that there is almost none of the “us” left.  And this very emptiness is the perfect platform from which G_d can and does choose to go to work in our lives.  

Can we see it?  In dropping in exhaustion, the philosophical/theological snippet, “apart from Him, we can do nothing,”  looses all its bows and ribbons and bells and whistles – and becomes hip-deep-in-the-mud, no-food-in-a-week, practical truth.

Any reader of this writer’s material can discern that just about every entry is autobiographical.  And this entry is no exception.  But, i am finding that beyond the autobiographical nature of the writing, the Good News in its content is even more true:

> G_d is really big
> He is really smart
> He is REALLY loving
> He is really able to take care of our problems
> And He really cares about me even more than i care for myself.

Wow, am i ready for The Kingdom tonight.

Are you?

“If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.”
~C.S. Lewis